I know that I have not been updating regularly, but I have been having some very rough days. At this point in time I feel lost.....I do not know where to turn nor what to do next. I have to get my house in order before everything happens. When I say its a mess I do not mean that there is dust and it needs straightened up. When I say it is a mess I mean it is A MESS!!!! I managed to get my living room in order yesterday and today It does not look like it was touched. My family are tornadoes!!!! That is the reason that I have given up on cleaning!!!!!!!!!! I am so full of extra fluid at this point that it takes alot for me to do something. I get out of breath so easily. Plus I have been having these horrible headaches for the past week. I have been taking my fioricet, but that does not even touch it. I know that they are related to stress, but what can I do. That is my life...STRESS....! Yesterday and today I have felt really weird. Like I am floating. I have checked my pressure and it is normal and I have also checked my sugar and it is normal. I just dont know. Probably the heat.
We have been pretty busy lately with Makailyn's cheerleading practice which has been 4 nights a week. Our youngest Makenzie is really mad at me right now, because I did not have the money to register her in dance as I had promised. But that and cheerleading was before we found out about Nevaeh's diagnosis. That may be another reason I am down, I just feel like a failure right now in every way. I can not keep my house clean, I can not please my husband, I can not give my girls what they want or need and I can not provide for my baby girl Nevaeh. Sometimes I actually wonder if life is worth it. I know that that sounds harsh, but I am to my breaking point and I hope that God can lead me in the right direction. Bless you all for reading. And putting up with my whinning.
3 weeks ago