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Hello everyone. I am sorry that I have not been updating, but I just haven't been able to force myself to talk about Nevaeh. I know that I need to do it more often. I have been trying to block out my pain, but have come to realize that I am making my life and my families life a misery. I have been told that talking about my angel will help me heal. I just dont know how that will help, but I am trying this out. I miss her more and more every day that passes by. I still to this day sleep with her blanket every night. That is comfort to me. The girls have been asking about her more and more lately. They say that they miss her so much. The other night while Makenzie and I where laying in bed she looked over at me with such a sad and serious face and said "Mommy, when is Nevaeh gonna be done with Jesus and come back home and live with us cause I miss her sooooooo much?" That just broke my heart into a thousand little pieces. Then she asked if we where gonna get a new baby since Nevaeh died and went to heaven.

10 comments:

croleyc69 said...

Praying for you so much.
Caroline

Lisette said...

I just to reach out and hug you right now because I know the pain you are feeling. I miss my little daughter to and I like you still sleep with her blanket. I cannot seem to sleep comfortable without it better yet I have not even tried! My 2 yr old son is always asking for the baby and it breaks my heart. I wish I knew the words to make it better but there none. This is just beyond words. Praying you have better days ahead.

Holly said...

I know you miss her so much!! I wish it were so easy that Jesus could give them back, even if it was for just a little bit.

Julie Burns said...

Mia, I feel so bad for you. I wish there was someting I could do to help ease your pain.

Momma2AnAngel said...

Thank you all so much. I know that it has to get easier someday. I just wonder when that day will be.

alisha said...

hello. my name is alisha and i had a baby with anencephaly as well i know how hard it is to handle. i just wanted to say you both are not alone. i am seriousl very sorry. i really thing putting your journey for people to see is awesome. its amazing how many people dont know what anencehoaly is. even i didnt know. well i hope your healing process goes well for you.

The Dowdneys said...

I came upon your blog completely by accident..well, not completely! I don't believe that God allows accidents and he created divine appointments for us daily! So let me retract that previous comment. I was searching on the internet for some encouraging material to send to a friend of mine whose newborn was placed in the NICU this morning. However, in reading your blog I am led to memories of this time last year during a difficult time in our family. I am so encouraged by your faith, your proclimation of God's mercy and grace, and I just wanted to say thank you for your transparency! I see that you have not written since January and I am praying that you are finding peace. That the hard days have been replaced with God's joy. Even though I have never met your or spoken to you, I know that pain that have walked through. And I know what endless days feel like riveted with greif. I am praying for you, sweet friend, that TODAY....today, you see and feel and know the Hope and Promise we have been gien as heirs of the King of Glory!

much love,

Kelli Dowdney

babydoll said...

i im sooooo sorry for ur lost,i cansay i know how u r feeling cuz i dont but i can just imagine ur pain again i im soo sorry!.....

babydoll said...

u will be in my prayers and all ur family....

prozac & anencephaly said...

You are very strong